Chapter 9, the storm is approaching
Lu Wei stood up, took two steps back, and looked at me as if I were a stranger
His lips moved as if he wanted to say something, but finally the light in his eyes completely dimmed. He turned around and then walked quickly towards the door amidst my frantic cries
After listening to Han Yang's vivid recounting, I found myself unable to utter a single word, as if something had seized my throat.
I took that heavy box of milk, and indeed I was thirsty, but my stomach felt as if it were filled with stones, heavy and burdensome. I thought for a moment, glanced at him and blinked: "I don't want to eat anything, let's just forget it!"
There is no time to reflect on everything I have done, and my tears begin to fall in large drops onto the white cotton quilt.
What time is it now? I asked
Are you thirsty? Would you like to have another cup of hot water? He held the cup of hot water, looking at me, his tone as gentle as ever
But... are you okay being here alone? Do you know how to call the nurse?" He looked worried.
We did nothing at all! I replied in a low voice, filled with indignation.
You have finally woken up. He stood at the foot of the bed, appearing to be some distance away from me, holding a heavy and large English study guide in his hand, which seemed to also contain a newspaper.
Han Yang finally stopped, glanced at the cup of hot boiled water on the table, and showed a hint of reluctance on his face: "Xing An is my best friend, I am just concerned about her... Also, I said, Lu Wei, are you being a bit overprotective of Xing An?" Han Yang looked at him with a strange smile and continued speaking
In the water vapor, his expression became blurred
How could I possibly not want you? Don't think too much about it; that was just a moment of anger. From now on, do not provoke them anymore. The urgent matter is to prepare for the university interview, focus your mind, and show them some results!
Am I a person now
Indeed, my father said that he does not have a daughter like me
"What? What is going on with Lu Wei? He said you went to evening study!" Mother questioned loudly, "So you even lied to your best friend! Tell me quickly, what is the matter?"
Very good, very quiet
My poor Xing'an, what on earth has happened!" She looked at me sadly, gently holding my hand, but her fingers were so cold that I couldn't help but flinch.
It was the first time I discovered that my own voice could become so dry and weak
My head hurts... I raised my hand, attempting to touch the throbbing temples.
After a few seconds of silence, Lu Wei took a breath and said: "If you have time, could you help us buy two portions of lunch? Plain congee or salty rice porridge, accompanied by some meat buns or stir-fried cabbage, etc..."
I wiped away those worthless tears, sniffed, and asked Lu Wei: "Why? Tell me, why do they no longer want me? Clearly, I have been so obedient... so obedient, why is it that just because I want a little bit of freedom, they would rather not have this daughter?"
Perhaps I am too lonely, the world is so vast, yet there is only one person willing to quietly listen to me speak, then tousle my bangs and tell me not to think too much, that it is enough to just be happy
With a circulation of 200,000 copies of this newspaper and the speed at which rumors spread within the academy, I can guarantee that at least tens of thousands of people in the entire city are currently scrutinizing this half-page news article filled with content and highlights, speculating about the various unsavory stories behind this report. And within this academy, after four hours, even the cleaning lady mopping the floors in the restroom should have recognized me by now
Three pairs of eager yet stern eyes stared at me, as if they were about to poke a hole in my face
It was a morning newspaper, with a headline that stood out particularly: "Students Spotted Racing in Longshan, A Hundred Lives at Risk!"
As I watched the black strands of hair fall one by one, a sense of pleasure arose within me... Just like those burdensome parts of the soul, the parts that do not belong to me, they too shattered into fragments along with these strands of hair, falling to the ground piece by piece, and then being carried away by the wind
Beneath these bold and highlighted words are several large photographs... The scenes in the photos are incredibly familiar... In the night, a crowd gathers, Ye Mubei's Harley motorcycle, and me sitting in the back seat with my collar flapping. Although only my bewildered profile was captured, no one in this city could fail to recognize my school uniform.
Every cell in my body seems to be stirred by profound confusion and immense despair
I do not know from where the sound of the ambulance is coming, repeating a monotonous melody, crashing back and forth against my eardrums, accompanied by a sharp pain in my temples
I felt a tightening in my heart and looked up to ask her, "When did you see them?"
I would rather not speak
What should I say
Only that person would say: "Why bother reading so exhaustively? Why not come into my arms and take a rest instead"
No need to look anymore, it is that damned morning newspaper
A sudden turmoil erupted in my stomach, as if the milk I had just consumed had transformed into something else, rising up with a sourness that lodged in my throat
Even I want to know what is going on!
Then I nodded, this is the answer
Mom! I raised my head, my face almost as red as hers. Am I really that unworthy in her eyes?
I tried to turn to the side, directing my face towards a slightly darker area of light, and only then did my vision gradually become clearer
Xing An, do not be too sad! Your parents acted on impulse, which is why they are unable to accept this reality
However, my reaction was clearly interpreted by her as a sign of being startled: "You were scared, weren't you? To be honest, I was scared too! I didn't expect this matter to escalate to such an extent. It's the first time I've seen your parents so angry!"
The weather has finally cooled down I said but it looks like it is going to rain
The homeroom teacher walked quietly in front, and I focused on her heels, which were a pair of brown flat shoes that appeared to be made of soft material. However, for some reason, the sound they made when striking the floor seemed particularly heavy
Today's morning report
After her footsteps faded away, the ward returned to a profound silence
Lu Wei walked over and poured water from the thermos into the glass.
A sudden inexplicable sadness surged over me like a tide. I shook my head, yet I could not shake off those noisy emotions. His tenderness was like a slow-acting poison, accumulating little by little in my body, not knowing which day it would suddenly erupt.
Fortunately, I did not hit my temple; if I had, it would truly be a frightening thought
As I walked out of the classroom, I heard the teacher inside striking the podium forcefully, producing a series of loud bangs, while scolding loudly.
I continued to remain silent, and then listened to Han Yang chattering on.
Done—these two words are the first to invade my blank mind
Could it just be a resemblance
Thank you, I said
He sat down at the head of the bed, placing his hand on my shoulder, as if to inject some kind of strength into my frail body. Then, he sighed
I have neither skipped classes nor engaged in any wrongdoing, so what is there that I cannot do
I kept my eyes lowered, staring blankly at the play of light and shadow on the white bedsheet. Every word from Han Yang felt like a small saw, mercilessly cutting into my heart
That is not true, I merely resemble the girl in the photo
When I woke up, I was holding this piece of glass and continuously cutting my own hair. The wounds on my head, the wounds on my hands, and the pain from the pulling of my scalp had all become numb, no longer existing
I widened my eyes, looking at him in disbelief—this was the first time in my life I had been described in such a way, and I never expected that the ones using such degrading words would be my parents
We have spoiled you too much in the past! You have never had to worry about food or clothing! Whatever you wanted, we bought for you! We sent you to the best academy, bought you the best computer, and the most expensive tutoring books! Now that you have grown up, your wings have hardened! You have learned to rebel! I close my eyes, truly unwilling to see the current state of this once tall and imposing figure before me
Are you going to class? The class in the afternoon
He let out a long sigh and continued, "You have a head injury. It was the homeroom teacher who asked a few male classmates to bring you over. Fortunately, it didn't hit your temple directly. After you get an anti-inflammatory injection in a while, you should be able to leave."
Perhaps I am too weak, so weak that I do not know how to refuse others' requests. Whether it is a classmate's request or a teacher's request, saying the word "no" is always so difficult for me, not to mention facing someone who says they want to make me happy and likes to see my smile
However, in the end, I found that I actually have nothing and am nothing.
Hurry up and speak!
However
Moreover, where should I begin
The worst part is that this photographer seems particularly fond of Ye Mubei's Harley, capturing even the image of him joyfully rushing past the finish line. Of course, I, who was overwhelmed by speed and excitement, also wore a big smile in the back seat, looking like a fool
In order to enhance my resume in the letter of introduction, I signed up for an English speech competition. Motivated by my mother's words, "If you don't come back with the first prize, don't come back at all," I practice memorizing large passages of English every day, even reciting them in my dreams
Raising his head, the father's face was filled with disbelief
I feel like a small creature that fears the sunlight, suddenly dragged out of a dark cave by a large hand and thrown into an open square with no shelter, exposed to the blazing sun
The world spins rapidly, each scene becoming long and silent, like fast-forwarded frames from an old film reel. Before my eyes, I see the finger of my mother pressing against my forehead, the way my father crumples the newspaper, and the strange looks from my classmates as if I were a monster
It is one thirty in the afternoon
What is going on
I remain silent, as if my soul is not present here at this moment, but is merely hovering above. Three people are looking at me simultaneously, and not a single one speaks. Then several seconds pass just like that
In fact, I still want to say "I'm sorry", but I always feel that if I just say it like this, Lu Wei probably won't have anything to say in response
Everyone has a heart as fragile as glass, so easily shattered, so lonely, yet no one has thought to gather it up and place it in a bottle
Only I sat in my seat, gazing with a blank expression.
I feel as if my entire body is filled with lead, and I have become heavy all over, to the point where I do not even want to move my fingers
Yes, that is me
It has finally started to rain outside. The sound of raindrops hitting everything drowns out my cries
Why
With a loud thud, a brand new newspaper landed on the coffee table in front of me
The air seems to have solidified
Even flipping through the day's newspaper will immediately incur ruthless scolding—"Don't waste time on useless things!"
I looked at her seemingly worried expression, yet echoing in my mind was her voice that I had accidentally heard one afternoon in the restroom.
I can no longer imagine how terrifying the next events will be
"Ah? Surely those rumors can't be true..." said the girl holding the newspaper, as if she were talking to herself, yet also seemingly questioning me.
Lu Wei's face suddenly turned pale
After a long time, someone walked in; it was Lu Wei
I do not know what expression to wear in front of her; I only hope that the room can return to its previous desolate state as soon as possible
I suddenly feel a bit breathless, as if the oxygen in this room has been insufficient ever since she stepped in. Her overly sweet voice is like a syringe, gradually siphoning away the remaining oxygen in my chest.
Accompanied by my prolonged tone, Lu Wei's footsteps finally disappeared around the corner. Watching his gray silhouette fade from view, I suddenly felt that he would never turn back again
The motorcycle sped along the seaside road, and the shimmering light on the water began to drown out those memories that had lost their sweetness, such as the image of Ye Mubei standing by the swing, handing me a lollipop, and the way he held my hand under the layers of dark clouds, telling me to step out with my left foot first
It seems that my prolonged silence has finally ignited the pent-up anger: "Are you really with that kind of bad boy? Have you lost your mind or..." My mother paused for a moment, seemingly at a loss for appropriate words. Perhaps for her, the current version of me could not be adequately described as "having a few screws loose" or "having my head caught in a door," but a more plausible description might be "having my soul swapped by aliens." In the end, she suddenly discovered a new point of anxiety.
I look at the glass on the ground, as if I am looking at my own heart
In the suffocating darkness before my eyes, I desperately tried to make a sound, but all I could hear was a single syllable escaping from my throat. Panic and heartache surged over me like a tide, and instinctively, I attempted to push him away, to escape from his grasp, but his strength was simply terrifying
"No, Xing An, listen to me..." Lu Wei was taken aback for a moment, trying to explain.
Are you alright? It seems like the wound is quite serious!" She hurriedly walked to my side, constantly examining the bandage wrapped around my head, her eyes wide open. "I heard that a large tuft of hair was cut off and several stitches were made! You must be feeling very upset!"
"Since you refuse to listen to us and are determined to destroy yourself! What purpose do we have in raising a daughter like you!" He grasped my shoulders with such force that it felt as if he might crush my bones
Han Yang looked at Lu Wei with a somewhat bewildered expression, paused for a few seconds, and then began to walk out as if losing his confidence: "Alright, I will go down and see if there is anything to eat. It is already past mealtime; you should have ordered food earlier..."
I do not wish to linger my gaze on that exceptionally clear and remarkable news photograph, nor do I want to see any word on that bold and crude headline, yet I am well aware in my heart...
Anyway, every word I say is merely a defense, which only serves to provoke their anger even more
I struggled to sit up from the bed, reflecting on the events before I was admitted to the hospital, and suddenly felt that something was missing, a sense of emptiness in my heart: "Where are my parents?"
I can no longer distinguish whether these warm liquids are my blood, hot water, or my tears
He is even calmer than I imagined, or perhaps, in his eyes, I am merely a pitiful person
The class bell rang, and my silence was evidently the answer that my gossip-loving classmates were seeking. The crowd finally dispersed and returned to their respective places, exchanging glances and communicating information that I could not comprehend
"Why aren't you speaking up! Are you not embarrassed enough? You have brought shame upon our entire family!" Father slammed the newspaper on the table, creating a loud clapping sound.
Everyone is at an age as transparent and pure as glass, easily seen through by anyone. People admire its clear appearance and the dazzling brilliance it exhibits under the sunlight, yet they also remember that it is actually worthless, ubiquitous, and can be ruthlessly discarded with just a speck of dust.
I do not want to trouble you anymore
"Let's go! Why aren't we leaving yet!" As I raised my hand, the glass fell to the ground with a crash, sending up a cloud of mist, hot water splashing onto Lu Wei's pant leg, leaving a dark wet stain. "Can't you just let me be quiet for a moment?"
Han Yang, she has just woken up and her mind is still not quite clear. You should let her be quiet for a while longer!
My head feels as if it has exploded, as if someone has forcefully stuffed an airbag inside, continuously inflating it at the wound. However, the physical pain is far less swift than the mental anguish.
Suddenly, there was an uproar behind me, a flurry of noise.
I replied softly: "Go ahead and drink, I haven't seen you drink water for a while, are you thirsty?"
Then, with a trembling voice, the mother began a new round of questioning: "If you do not speak, does that mean you admit it?"
I simply hope that when I feel tired and put down my book, what I receive is not scolding and urging, but rather a brief indulgence and relaxation, that is all
At the age as clear as glass, I wish to be a pure Gu Xing'an, as clean as glass that has just been wiped, and as tough as bulletproof glass
Enough! I don't want to hear it anymore! Anyway, I am so familiar with your lines that I can recite them! It's nothing more than 'As long as you study hard and listen to them, they will continue to love you!' Or 'What will happen if you don't study hard?' 'They are doing this for your own good! To make your future life better!' Do you know that I am about to break down right now! I am going crazy! I can't go on living! Sometimes I feel like I am not even a living person! 'To make your future life better!' Do you know that I am about to break down right now! I am going crazy! I can't go on living! Sometimes I feel like I am not even a living person! I am just a machine, a machine that only knows how to study!
Well, today's morning newspaper reported that it is a super typhoon
Xing An, you should know that Ye Mu Bei is about to be expelled! He spends all day being unproductive, how could you be with someone like him! The class teacher stood beside the mother, his face filled with nothing but confusion.
Come on, even if you can't recognize the person, you should be able to recognize the car. Who else could drive such a vehicle besides him
The sound of the ambulance has faded away, leaving behind a grave-like silence
"Usually appearing pure and innocent, how could it be..."
In the morning, I heard that you had an accident, and the homeroom teacher called a few people over. The scene was very chaotic, and when I saw you fainting, I was terrified!
"Xing An, is that you?" A girl opened a newspaper towards me, "You are in the newspaper!"
Is it really you?" A boy couldn't help but loudly ask me, who was standing there in shock, unable to utter a single word.
A sudden sharp pain struck the back of my head, and my world was suddenly engulfed in darkness
"Did you not say that you were going to evening study? Did you not say that you were going with your classmates to attend some experience sharing session by a study abroad agency and would return later? Are all these lies?" My father still spoke in an inquiring tone, but this only made me feel more distressed
I can hardly lift my head up
Are you hungry? Have a drink first. He walked over, the mint green curtain swaying beside him, and he took a box of milk from his backpack and handed it to me. "Use this to settle your stomach. I will go downstairs to buy some congee. Is there anything else you would like to eat?"
The third class is Chinese language class, and there are only a few minutes left before the class bell rings. In the corridor, two workers are standing on a long ladder installing a camera. Just thinking that in a few hours, every move of each student walking down this corridor will be recorded by that cold little machine, even the small action of blowing one's nose will be captured in detail, sends a shiver down my spine
Star Peace
"Don't say such ominous things!" Han Yang's brow furrowed stiffly, and then he vividly recounted, "But your parents are really heartless! Seeing you lying there, supported by your classmates, they didn't seem worried at all! When the homeroom teacher asked your father to find a doctor, he actually angrily said, 'I don't have such a daughter!' This left the homeroom teacher in a very awkward position!"
Do not take her words too seriously; in fact, she does not understand your situation at all, as you know. "Lu Wei said, "Your parents are just momentarily angry..."
How can they bear it? If it were me, I would definitely be filled with regret!
Just as I was about to sit down, I suddenly heard a murmuring whispering...
Even the occasional glances from the teacher standing at the podium towards me have become strange
Why
I no longer wish to see those soon-to-be-activated surveillance cameras, so I turned around and returned to the classroom. Just as I was about to step through the doorway, I noticed that it was unusually lively inside.
"No! You have no idea! You know nothing!" I reached out again to push him, pushing him even further away, "Just go! Don't worry about me! Anyway, I'm just trash, I'm not a good student, nor am I a well-behaved girl! I'm just a mischievous girl who loves to play!"
My throat tightened suddenly, and I could hardly breathe. Instinctively, I struggled, like a fish drowning. In the violently shaking vision, I could only see his glasses reflecting a cold light, but I could not make out his expression.
In a state of panic, I stepped back, unaware of where my feet landed, unable to control my balance. Suddenly, I fell backward, the hand around my neck loosened abruptly. All I could see was the ceiling spinning above me, and in my ears was my father's roar, while I was plummeting...
"Gu Xing'an, please step outside with me." she said calmly
Be quiet, be quiet
"You went out with him so late! Nothing happened? Even if nothing was done, what will others think of you? A good student like you, not studying! Hanging out with delinquents! What kind of image is that! It's simply too embarrassing!" The father rolled up the newspaper and slapped it on the coffee table, and that newspaper was already wrinkled beyond recognition.
Just pretend you don't know, right? She has truly embarrassed herself greatly
Memories ferment and then go bad
My frantic gaze hastily swept over the lead type beneath the image, words like youth, street racing... A series of words that stimulate the senses continuously jumped into view
Xing An, I know ... ...
Yes, please speak quickly, what is going on
Who else will tidy them up besides myself
When the teacher said, "Let us turn to page 47," the homeroom teacher walked in. The classroom fell silent, and anyone could see that her expression was worse than that of a burnt pot.
Lu Wei was momentarily taken aback, and then he said nothing. His silence allowed a sense of unease to spread within my heart.
A sense of despondency enveloped me like a thin cocoon. With my eyelids lowered, I gazed at Lu Wei's shoes
Shh, keep your voice down... She shouldn't still be unaware, should she?
I once believed so firmly that my parents would always love me and would tolerate all my mistakes
Enough! Can't you say something else? I pushed him away forcefully, interrupting his words, staring at him in disbelief. It's already come to this! They are still thinking about what university? What prestigious school? Is my existence in their eyes only about my impressive degrees and grades?
I furrowed my brow, yet even such a slight movement brings a more intense sensation of pulling pain. What is happening to me?
Hurry up and speak!
"I ask you, is this really you?" My mother asked right away, her voice so loud, like a clap of thunder
I would rather he scold me thoroughly; perhaps it would make me feel a bit better inside
A girl in her teens, who wouldn't wish to have one or two people who like her? There is that one person, whom you like, and he likes you too
Lu Wei frowned deeply, opened his mouth as if to say something, but swallowed it back.
I am not quite sure... After a while, his cautious voice emerged, "It seems there was an urgent matter, so he left first"
It is time to do the exercises? Today's homework is not finished again, and I have only memorized 300 fewer words. As for the interview, let's forget about it!
My mind is completely blank
Through the gap between the shoulders, unexpectedly, I saw a newspaper, and I guessed it must be the entertainment section
I know nothing; I was deceived into coming here
I said, how can your parents do this? After all, you are their only daughter!
No matter how one tries to evade it, the storm has already swept through the city.
In the blurred vision, I looked at the glass on the ground, which had already been shattered
What on earth are you thinking, child
In an instant, the air seemed to crystallize.
The words on the blackboard became blurred, and everything before my eyes resembled a camera lens that had lost focus, or perhaps an old photograph soaked in overnight winter melon soup
What was once firmly believed in is, in fact, merely a handful of fine sand on the shore, which, with a slight grip, will slip away through one's fingers
"Speak quickly! To what extent have you two progressed? What exactly have you done? Have you... have you done anything... anything inappropriate?" She exerted great effort to finish those few words, her face already flushed red.
All stories resemble a dream, a dream without beginning or end
Perhaps the air conditioning is set too high, with the cold air blowing directly on my forehead. The room temperature is so low that I couldn't help but shiver.
Don't move! A hint of tension flashed across Lu Wei's face, and I was startled by him, causing me to tremble and reluctantly lower my hand
Her gaze fell directly upon me
There will be no more such mornings. Every familiar scene will become increasingly unfamiliar, and then settle into the furnace of time
Why should I work so hard
In order to earn a reassuring smile from my father, I declined countless invitations from my classmates, solely to memorize a few more words
My cheeks burned uncontrollably, as if they were on fire. I seemed to smell the scent of something charred in the air—reason and eloquence were reduced to ashes, leaving only charred remnants
A group of people is gathered around a table in the corner, seemingly competing to see something, while several girls are discussing something enthusiastically
I picked up a piece of broken glass. It remained transparent and clean, reflecting the despair in my eyes
Like a robot that has received a command, I stood up and walked out calmly
I reached out to touch the warm shards of glass, and after the sting, the red blood quickly dissolved into the hot water, spreading out like a blooming lantern flower. Tears fell upon it, creating another transparent flower that spread out.
Do not!
Perhaps I am too foolish, clearly knowing that consuming those things is unhealthy, that going to those places is not very safe, and that being with him will stir up a storm, yet I simply cannot refuse him. The joy he brings me is like a fast-acting poison invading my brain cells, making me even more foolish than I already am.
Is such an idea really that terrible
"What are you talking about! What have you done?" She poked my forehead with her finger, and I felt as if it were a power drill.
The sound of my father was like a whip, striking harshly against my face
My voice is like a radio without an antenna, no matter how I adjust it, I cannot find the right channel
Lu Wei sat down beside me, and together we looked up: "A typhoon... a typhoon is coming, it will rain heavily tonight"
Not even a real kiss took place
Yes, that is me, the girl sitting on the back seat of the Harley motorcycle, dressed in uniform, holding down my skirt, with an innocent expression, that is me
Is that so? Is this typhoon very strong
Enough! The depth of her thoughts far exceeds my imagination
A mint green curtain swayed gently in the breeze, and beside the bed stood a short white cabinet. Apart from an old red telephone, there was nothing else on the cabinet. That splash of red against the pale wall resembled a hard bristle brush, causing me to blink repeatedly.
In the office, two familiar faces—my father and mother. A chill ran through me, as if a part of my soul had been drawn away, and I began to feel utterly weak.
Lifting the heavy eyelids, the vision is filled with a vast expanse of white light, everything appears blurred as if seen through a layer of seawater
Hmm. I do not wish to display any expression, including a polite smile, nor do I want to say another word
I do not even have the strength to respond with a quiet "oh"
"I have something urgent to attend to," what a simple excuse it is
Hurry up and speak!
I do not have such a daughter
What I want to say seems to be an overwhelming amount, enough to fill a football field, yet once expressed, what they can accept and understand is very little, so little that not even a single spoonful can be filled.
After finishing a box of milk, a young nurse walked in silently and placed a thermos and a glass on the table. Then, a cough was heard by the door as Han Yang entered, brushing past the nurse.
What? I was taken aback for a moment. However, just a glance at the newspaper made me feel as if I had been struck by something, and my head was buzzing.
I guess they are reading some magazine filled with celebrity gossip, but strangely, even the boys who are usually uninterested in entertainment news have joined the ranks of gossip.
"You won't speak! You won't speak, will you! Do you think that if you remain silent, we will let you go?" My father threw the mangled newspaper onto the ground and stood up abruptly. I had never seen such a twisted expression on his face due to rage; I instinctively took a step back, only to realize that my legs had been trembling for a long time.
Was it a classmate who brought me here
His eyes were filled with bloodshot veins, yet he still tried to comfort me, albeit somewhat clumsily
Just watching television for a few minutes will get you scolded - "What are you watching television for? Shouldn't you be focusing on your studies?"
Suddenly realizing that I am like a fool, foolish to the point of bubbling over
Lu Wei did not say anything, merely gazing at the cup of water
A person...
Once so naive, I believed that as long as I smiled and spoke softly, everyone would like me
The atmosphere around me became somewhat unsettling, and when I turned around, I saw several classmates from that group staring at me
Yes, I have done it all! I have been so obedient, so very obedient, staying in this transparent cage all the time, and just stepping out to take a breath, I have already borne the sins sufficient to fall into hell
What purpose do we have in raising a daughter like you
I gave a wry smile and gently said, "Are you scared to death? Do you think I was beaten to death by my father?"
Don't rush, let me take a look
And those things that I once thought were within close reach, that I could grasp simply by standing on tiptoe... for example, selecting chocolates with a female classmate in a store during Christmas, or discussing the sound quality of the newly opened KTV with classmates. Why do these things, which seem so easily attainable for others, suddenly feel so distant, so far away for me?
I do not like being monitored, yet I am unable to prevent it
This is a deception! This cannot be true!
The cool, slippery liquid flows through the straw into the mouth, then into the esophagus, like a small river quietly flowing through parched fields. A sense of reality returns to my body, and I finally have a faint feeling of being alive.
No matter how hard I try, I cannot escape the harm
Just like fragile glass, with just a slight misstep, it shatters into countless pieces, never to be gathered again
I closed my eyes, and the tears that filled my heated eye sockets finally flowed down.
Having consumed more than half a box of milk, my eyes finally adjusted to the light here. I turned my face to the side and gazed out the window at a gloomy sky, where large, dark gray clouds were slowly drifting across the horizon
On a certain morning, gradually emerging in memory, the gentle face of Lu Wei in the morning light, and the peaceful gaze of my mother in the steam of the oatmeal porridge
Such a father is terrifyingly unfamiliar! I desperately want to push him away
Indeed, it is this set of words again
I am clearly preparing for an overseas interview, yet I foolishly accepted Ye Mubei's invitation while sitting under the desk lamp every night, battling with exercises. It is worth noting that every time I sit in the back seat of his Harley, I do not even know where he is going!
"Is it still painful?" she asked me in a tone filled with concern, her face so close that I could even see my expressionless face reflected in her pupils
Is it possible to correct a mistake? Who hasn't made mistakes? As long as one corrects it, that's sufficient! Moreover, there are still a few months left until the entrance examination
A classmate said that you are in a relationship with that delinquent, Ye Mubei, is it true? The homeroom teacher's eyes widened, and from her expression, it seemed she would rather gouge out her own eyeballs and throw them at my face.